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Some people this world, its hard to trust.. Some people is full of sweet talk mother f*****.. & make other people fall of it.. Gosh.. Got such people in this world who are cruel euf, huh??? Most, girls will happen to be the one who suffer.. sux isit?? Now.. I dont even know i can trust you.. You seem you can be trusted.. But then again.. haiyo! Im so damn afraid.. i dont noe what to do.. Are you just like another sweet talker mother F*****? You seem so different now.. Well, I cant do or say much things coz im nodody to you.. mayb i hope too much.. mayb i think too much.. mayb i ask too much.. Haizz.. If you people attent to playin ard, by all means, Get urself out the door.. If you wanna play dirty, i will make ur life a livin hell.. I can be very nice, but i can also be very bad.. remember that.. Im confuse!!! help my dear janice! Whee!! Pay in!! Shopin!!!!!! hahaah!! I wanna buy camera! gosh!! nex month then i cn have it.. SO LONG!! signin off.. RockChic..
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Look inside, Look inside, Your tiny mind. Then look a bit harder, cause we're so uninspired. So sick and tired. Of all The hatred you harbor, so you say It's not okay to be gay, Well I think You're just evil. You're just some racist. Who can't tie my laces, You're point of view Is medevil. Fuck you, fuck you Very, very much. Cause we hate What you do And we hate Your whole crew So please Don't stay in touch, Fuck you, fuck you Very, very much Cause your words Don't translate And it's getting Quite late So please Don't stay in touch. Do you get, Do you get A little kick out. Of being small minded You want to be Like your father His approval your after Well that's not how You'll find it Do you Do you really enjoy Living a life That's so hateful Cause there's a hole Where your soul Should be You're losing Control of it And it's really Distasteful Fuck you, fuck you Very, very much Cause we hate What you do And we hate Your whole crew So please Don't stay in touch Fuck you, fuck you Very, very much!!
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The Family Day Out...  Bluek!!  Sis liza, Myself & Sis nana..  The sisters for Life...  2 Crazy people..  Daddy "angel"  It was on 21/6/2009 & its family day out! it been a long time since we family did this.. All surpose to meet at Clementi Chicken Rice Shop at 4pm.. BUT at 3plus.. My sister & me still at Home SLEEPIN!! Then, here come the lion! "OI! Wat time now??!! WaKE UP LA!! huh! When ur boyfriends al call to meet! ah, so fast wake up & get ready! When come to all this.!!" shouting2 away.. Me & my sis was like wtf! Can Shut up not.. Dont Spoil the day la.. Haiyo.. We quicky change & get ready, so he shut up.. & ther we was at clementi... but we have to wait fr my irritating sister n brother who reach the 1hr plus!! we were so hungry la!! gosh... at last they arrive!! Start EATIN!! After eatin, the sisters & brother went one side to talk abt Mummy birthday.. on another hand, dad n mummy was like wonderin is the childrens talkin abt.. hahah! the LOOK on their face.. Then we decided to go to the SAF place.. Rush..Rush.. Say goodbye to mummy & dad.. BUT they also wan to follow.. "Too bad, the age above 50, are not allow to follow" said my sister.. hahahaha!! We went down to SAF place.. 1 word! BEAUTIFUL! the view of the place is so nice.. its like in hawai. hahah.. TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK THINK THINK THINK THINK Then off we go to Jalan Kayu.. Hang out ther & talk again.. THEN>>> Suddenly! my brother asked, What happen between u & him?? soo Kpo! hahaha.. I just kept quiet & smile.. he keep askin, til i say.. "mind your ouwn bussiness please.." hahaah!! Then we talk abit about some stuff, then, FULLSTOP to it.. The day was so fun!! WHEEE!! Till the nex one.. Peace! RockChic
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Noting Lasts Forever.. But if you put faith in it.. It will Lasts Forever.. Edited Pictures of Me..      Gosh!! Today morning was soo boring! Total of only bloody 29 patients! bloody borin la.. hehe! I slept ther fr 1hr again.. Super damn bored! Time past so slow.. But this time i dont feel like goin hm.. bcoz today is wer everything ends.. Made my decision.. Noting will change my decision.. Give him 3 chances & blow it away.. So thats it.. Met him. Talked. Clear things up. as wasted as i tot.. i cnt stand it anymore.. i hav to let go, even how much i still love him.. help me open up his eyes & mind & tell him how i felt.. But i was wondering, Will I be able to fall in love again? Will I be able to trust again? Will I be able to have faith again..? Questions askin me.. But wit No Ans.. Thinkin, Thinkin I WILL LEARN TO LOVE AGAIN..! I WILL LEARN TO TRUST..! Please make me stand up with my two feet strong.. Haiz.. Till the nex.. signin off.. RockChic..
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Another Day of Laughter & Fun.. This is wen boredness cms...  Loving her... hahaahah! wth!  The besties which goes thru ups & downs wit..  Stock to see you!! hahaa BOO!!  Oh Gosh..!  step cute!!  peace out!! 
miss her so much!! hahaha.. & waiting for his call or msg... we had fun!! Eat at tea tarik.. Eat Butter prawn n kang kong!! wow!! so full!! then went hm to grap the laptop.. then go starbux.. thats wer the pic from.. The day i smile unsotp.. w/o thinkin of anything.. loves!!! signin off.. rockchic..!
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My lil dance partner!! haha.. yayyayayaayay! she love dancin as much as me.. really!!  My another dance partner which also my bestie  they dont call me a dancer fr noting! just finish dancin @countdown..!  drunken by YOU!! wahahaah!!!  I was soo bored.. waitin fr someone to called.. hahah.. so, i watch all the dance show i noe.. n i miss dancin.. miss soo much.. i decided to start dance again, even wen my bck hurts.. who care..?? limit2 endin up in hospital. hehe. if that's the only thing would kills my hurtness.. yes, i will do it again.. startin fr todae.. im goin bck straight today.. On the music..! and dance till i drop! wow.. tat will sure feeling good.. hahaha! yeah! i so gonna to tat!! whee!! =) mind the crazyness.. its been a long time.. Till the nex one.. sign off!!! RockChic..
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 16 June 2009.. Fun & Hurtless Night Till... The day was so bored.. in hour only 1 patient came.. n another 2 hours, 1 patient.. it was a drag! gosh.. lucky i bought my sis laptop wit me, so I can find things to do.. Is like from 9am.. all the way to 5:30, only 51 patient cm! believe or wat.. I was so bored.. Listenin to music.. Till someone gave a missed call, dont noe fr wat.. haha.. so msg him.. n he was like late for work... hahah!! So, i seated down the whole day doing noting, playin the internet.. Cant wait to go home and ....... heh... Then chated with my ex, Muz.. Irritating him.. He scolded me fr noting.. N he keep cursing me, goin bck late.. Idiot! really ean idiot.. hahah.. Look at the time.. N! ITS TIME TO GO HOME!! YEAH... So the happy.. In train my mum called askin wat movie to watch.. wth! hahaha.. i said.. DRAG ME TO HELL!! haha.. but im nt in the mood to think about the problem.. I dont wan to think of him.. It will make me cry.. sux! ... Met already.. talk n talk n talk.. time past so fast.. we laugh, talk, quiet.. then laugh, talk n quiet.. hahah.. It was fun being ard someone.. its so funny wen we saw a GUY wearin shawl over his head n look here n there.. then i said. wat if he bring a bom how?? OUH NO! heh.. then said something nice n sweet.. that made me smile.. everything was goin fine.. Now i keep listenin to 'Thinkin of you by Katy Perry' I dont noe y.. i just feel the song fits me.. Asked me.. "you listen to hip hop n r&b rite? listen to delimma by Nelly.." For you.. I forget hw the song like... then sang fr me the first sentence.. hahah.. nice... My besties msg me.. asking me why am i avoidin him.. i told her.. i wanna b alone.. i dnt wan to think of him.. not now.. I need time for myself. Wen the time comes, i promise i will talk okie.. den the nex ting i noe.. she blame fr treatin him like tat.. WTF! I was so sad.. First u said u will always b on my side.. Now?? He talked to you.. N you r blamin me?? you know shit about i feel okie.. You took my life away.. N nw, My only friend?? Wat else u wan? My Family?? My day hav gone from good to worst... tried to smile but instead tears cming out.. tried to hold it on.. but.. haizz.. i didnt wan to go bck yet.. i wanna stay and cry my lungs out.. but it was late n got to work mrng 2mr.. so, wit heart broken, sadness. i went hm.. my sister noe wats goin on.. so, she just keep quiet n ask me to sleep beside her.. & my another sister asked.. why? why fight? alah my small sis is always strong.. 1 go, 10 will come.. i noe my sis.. she a strong who dont give a shit.. she made me laugh out loud! hahaha... msg, msg.. told to sleep early n rest.. but i found out tat didnt sleep.. haiyo.. bt i cnt say or do anything.. im nobody.. so i just say, "keep it up" msg, msg, waited till fall asleep.. the nex ting i noe its 6am! noo!!! heh.. Till the next time.. signin off. RockChic.. =)
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I miss schooling!! I miss goin to school n being wit my friends. havin fun.. crazy to e max.. haha.. miss those days.. N i miss all my friends! gosh.. my friends is always be ther for me.. but now, everyone is gone wen i need them most.. **I still have my Besties! JANICE!** thkz for being ther wen i need or dnt need u.. thk u fr everyting j... she is always ther.. But i cant disturb her all time.. she have her own life too.. i cnt keep talkin to her abt my problem.. im sure she will get sick n tired of it.. heh.. so sometime.. i will alone, feelin lost and empty! heh.. here's the pictures of us sisters.... Like couple rite! haha... We r stairght!  last year during ndp tea..  SHE LOVE DOUNUTS!!! 
 i miss myself.. miss the part of me.. the crazyness of me.. short hair, piercin at my ears, jeans, conversshoes.. dancing wen as wen i wan.. free like a bird.. flyin ard.. but stop till someone stops me.. everything.. watever i love to do, everything. stop! without knowing y i stop wen they all my life time ting. this is me last time.. they call my ROCKCHIC.. RockChic in e house.. hahah  Told he hw i feel.. but he just dont understand.. he thinks watever i do is stupid.. wen watever he do is right... Talk to him soo many many times.. but noting work.. noting.. till nw.. i give up.. im down. helpless.. sad.. frustrated.. angry.. hopelss.. everything.. the feelin is like my life is over.. i cant wit my two feet n stand.. i wan everything stop.. i wan to be love.. but i wan to hav freedom.. doin watever i used to do.. i just hope some day he will understand hw i feel.. and just be with me for wat am i to be.. you love me coz who i was.. not who i is nw.. talked to someone yesterday.. and he really make me tink.. it was fun talkin to him.. he advice me alot of useful things. he really made me think.. we talk alot.. about our life.. everyting, we talked about everything and anything.. we can just talk about anything in 4hrs.. we sit down.. and tell everything.. it was really fun.. he made me smile alot of times.. to him, he dont wan to b sad or think negetive things.. "THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON!'" his favourite sentence.. haha.. thk u fr ur company dude hehe.. you really made me feel better ytd.. thkz alot.. tats all.. signing off.. Rockchic - Ladychic
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Wow.. Its been a very long time since i wrote a blog.. busy, busy me.. work, work n work forever.. Life hav been great.. Never been better.. My life has been great ever since i met him.. but sometime i miss myself.. miss being myself.. when ever i told him that. he will blame it on me. and say its tis n tat.. this is the first i let a person take over my life.. its nt a regret.. but just wan him to understand, its so hard.. it is even wrong to miss urself sometime? i feel like shoutin my lungs out loud.. crying out blood.. wat should i do? who cn i run to? world goin ard. but i stuck here no where to go.. Family, Him, Work, Money, Friends.. haiz.. i just wanna be free! fly as high as i cn. shout as loud as i wan. EVERYTHING..! But i never regret every minutes of myself.. i just need space. i just need time, i just need a friend.. To lover, to friends, to family n to everyone.. its never regret being wit all of you.. signing off.. till nex time.. RockChic - LadyChic..
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About Her & Only Her..
Hidayah a.k.a YaYa
Songs Of the past
→ June 2009 People Of My Life..
*My bestie J*, Nysa.., Fatin.., HicaL.., My Julie.., Bear2.., Ika.., ShiKin.., Blank, Blank, Blank, Blank, Blank, Blank, Blank, Blank. If It Meant to be, I Sing it For you..
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